You're My Sunshine

i don't know why i'm here. but one thing i'm certain of is that i wanna say sorry. i'm sorry for neglecting your feelings and didn't try to understand how u feel everytime. sorry for being so unreasonable. sorry for being so self-centered. sorry for having so much flaws that made u felt so miserable. sorry for everything i've done to hurt you. i'm really sorry. i know i've said umpteen times of SORRY. but i wanna let you know that i treat our relationship seriously. unlike my past relationship. i realised that i couldn't do w/o you. i didn't want to suggest what i shouldn't have but i don't have any other choice alrdy. who would want their bf to stay away instead of acc-ing them at this period of time. i need you by my side even more. i need to do well in my studies to move on. i'm not implying that u're why i couldn't concentrate on my studies. it's just that,in any way,i wld get affected by it alright. i just hope that u can understand. i admit that i didn't think of your feelings but can u also try to understand me. i know this would be even unfair to you but there's nth i can do now. if i try my best to accomodate you now and kept quiet when i feel unhappy about something, wouldn't i think about it even more? argh . i don't know. i don't wish to say anything anymore.